Why am I even having these thoughts now when you chose to give this to me?
Why is it that I am able to detach myself from any form of intimacy, yet I'm here being intimate with you?
Why did you tell me you loved me, then I lied and told you that I loved you back?
Why was I not just honest with you, yet I couldn't be because then I would hurt you?
Why is it that as boys we are forced to be men, yet as men we find ourselves longing to be boys again?
I then take off your clothes; passionately kissing every inch of your vulnerabilty, yet I find myself fighting myself daily to show mine.
Why is that so? Because; It is easier to Climax then climb next to you and let myself go, and let you see my deepest parts of my humanity I chose to throw deep into the abyss of my emotions masked with male bravado and masculinity.
I just want you to love me for me, can I just be me and not what the world wants me to be?
Why can't I just be honest with myself? Because it is easier to believe a lie then to dig deep down in my own soul and expose the true me.
The Truth is hard to face when you have yourself to be honest with....TO BE CONTINUED
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