Hidden Agenda?

As I lay there naked; and ready to please every of your body, for a split second I ask myself why am I here? 

Why am I even having these thoughts now when you chose to give this to me?

Why is it that I am able to detach myself from any form of intimacy, yet I'm here being intimate with you?

Why did you tell me you loved me, then I lied and told you that I loved you back?

Why was I not just honest with you, yet I couldn't be because then I would hurt you?

Why is it that as boys we are forced to be men, yet as men we find ourselves longing to be boys again?

I then take off your clothes; passionately kissing every inch of your vulnerabilty, yet I find myself fighting myself daily to show mine.

Why is that so? Because; It is easier to Climax then climb next to you and let myself go, and let you see my deepest parts of my humanity I chose to throw deep into the abyss of my emotions masked with male bravado and masculinity. 

I just want you to love me for me, can I just be me and not what the world wants me to be?

Why can't I just be honest with myself? Because it is easier to believe a lie then to dig deep down in my own soul and expose the true me. 

The Truth is hard to face when you have yourself to be honest with....TO BE CONTINUED

I Come from Royalty

     People always get really sensitive when I advocate for people of African Decent. But Why? I'm African American & I love what I, and have embraced the notion ever since I could fathom who I was. When others talk about anything involving Black people, the very first thing (and seemingly the only thing) people talk about is slavery. Now as broad and deeply rooted as our rich history and traditions are, black people have contributed WAY more then slave labor to the world. The strong individuals that were forcibly placed into bondage were NEVER slaves, but rather turned into slaves. There is definitely a huge difference between the two.

     I realize that slavery is apart of my history & I truly do understand that part, but to simply just make it appear as though that is the only aspect of Black people is beyond insane. We have contributed MOST of what the WORLD uses and takes advantage of on a consistent basis. Things which if they did not exist the world may have not been the same without it. I would be writing forever if I truly spoke of the contributions Black People have contributed. The proof is all there in what we use and see each and every day we open our eyes. NEVER doubt or second guess the place in society People of African Decent are. You can go by the news and statistics all you want to, However, I know that my rich history and traditions don't lie in what others see me as or what others feel. It is what is factual, and the contributions given far outweigh any mistakes that we as a people have EVER done.

    Remember Black People ruled the WORLD, & we may not be as we once were, but I guarantee we will be even better once we unite & remember our purpose!