Thin line between wants & needs

I'm battling two sides; the part that knows what I need and the part that knows what I want. You're what I want, who I see a bright future with. The one I want to grow old with, have kids with and get married to. You're the one I want to make love to; look deep into your eyes and let myself go as we connect deeper then we ever thought possible. But are what I need though? I need to make this money, set up my future and build a legacy. I need to provide for myself and my family so we will NEVER have to want for anything. I need to build these companies; build a strong team that strives for excellence, do everything that the non-believers said couldn't be done. I need to stop being so impatient about my future and what it will bring me. I want to give up on dreams because I need to wake up; they may not even happen. But I need to keep on trying because I'm right on the cusp of a break through. I want you to be here by my side holding me down, but I need to let you go because this is journey I have to take alone. Sometimes what we want and need aren't what we think they are but it's up to you to figure that out. It's a thin line between wants and needs; at times those wants are what we need them to be, and those needs are what we want them to be, but we're unsure. It's a battle between the heart and the brain. Wondering should we use our logic or go on pure emotion. We all come at a crossroad in life where we have to decipher the importance of both our wants and needs. It's honestly about keeping a balance; but can it even be done? Sometimes we have to let go of our needs to get what we want. Sometimes the wants have to be put on hold to go after what we'll need. Either way you slice it life is just one big movie, and we have to figure out the ending before the credits roll. Have you figured it out yet.....?

My Silent Poetry

It's weird but I feel like I've known you forever, like someone I've met in a past lifetime. I embrace you like we've been together for eons. When we speak I get lost in your Voice, my thoughts wandering to what we can become. I feel weak because there's not one word that can fully express how much I care for you. I feel new strength knowing I'm not alone in these feelings I've felt. I yearn for your warm embrace, anticipating the day I can gaze deep in your eyes and pour out all my emotions to you with my body. Two becoming one like distant lovers, yet we've known each other for only a moment. But these moments feel like lifetimes each time we speak, I never want them to end or for you to leave. But when you do go I find myself lost in my thoughts again, wondering how God placed such a angelic woman like you in my life. You're someone I always wanted, but I never felt I would get. It's almost surreal, a dream that I never want to wake up from. If God created perfection you were his greatest masterpiece. From the way you wear you hair, down to your perfectly pedicured feet, you're beyond whatever word I could think of to express how amazing I find you. I feel so strongly about you; but I don't like this feeling of vulnerability. Knowing that at any moment I could lose you, but I would give anything to have just one moment with you. If I had nothing, I would be fine knowing I had you by my side. You've shown me what It feels like to be appreciated, and now I never want to let you go, not even for a moment...

I'll never understand (poem)

I'll never understand you this thing called love, created so ingeniously by the Lord above.

You can make one laugh, you make one cry, you can make us leave, even stay and try.

You say nothing but we hear you loud and clear, for some it's hard to embrace you because of our fear.

You can cause a tear whether good or bad, you can give the weak strength even if they are sad.

Love is not something only a mother can give, it can breathe new life into a dead heart and cause it to live.

Love does not hurt us, nor give us pain, love gives us new life and something to gain.

Love is something to cherish and something to believe, love is something limitless once it is achieved.

I myself have once loved but that was long ago, but I have never been in love, I wonder why not though?

I guess because I guard my heart because it's important to me, then I remember that old saying "if it's meant to be it will Be."

Love; why are you so complicated and confusing yet carefree? You're something some won't be blessed to even see.

I'll never understand stand you fully, this thing called love, I guess because I was looking everywhere else but from the Lord above...

Lifestyles and Life lessons

    It's moments like the one I'm experiencing now where I feel alone. That there's no one that understands exactly how I feel and what I'm going through. I have much to be blessed and happy about, especially since I'm still here. Alive and kicking with my soul still in tact. I've been having a very trying time as of late and I'm in need of many answers from the man upstairs. I ALWAYS try to keep up an optimistic mindset, even when I find that situations in my life are trying to overwhelm me. I just realize more and more that the road I trod will never be an easy one, and I'm not expecting it to be either. But I do wish that there were more people there then my family. However, Realistically that's the only people that will always wind up being there.

    I don't know, maybe I just expect way too much from people. I've always felt like my level of loyalty and care was much more then it should have been for most people anyway. But that's nothing to feel bad about right? I just know I'll ALWAYS keep my head held high even when things aren't looking so great. You must believe in something, even when it looks like believing appears it's not getting anywhere. I never keep a defeated spirit, and life always has a way of moving in your favor when you just let GOD handle the rest.

   I realize you should never really put your very all into anyone who doesn't do that with you. I guess it's me growing up, not putting all my eggs in one basket. I haven't given up on people, I've just given up on investing unwarranted time into those that don't deserve it anyway. Yea, that's what it is. Life is an interesting situation, that's what makes it so great in the first place. Never give in or give up, just move forward and stay Persistent. Because Persistent Men Excel....